Monday, March 8, 2010

journal entry from august 12, 2007

What can I give you since you
won't take my heart??
What can I show you proving
love from the start??

Monday, March 1, 2010

responses to the lessons learned

1. especially be aware that i blindly think that everyone else should think she’s just as cool as i do.

2. just treating you to a different smile. Variety makes the world go round…right? (does this one affect #23?)

3. true. Brilliant insight. Story to go along with: I see it as that nasty trick where you trick someone into holding a bowl of water against the ceiling with a broomstick and then laugh as no one else takes it from them so that have to keep standing there or else the bowl will fall. Kids are bowls of water to me. That’s why I say I hate broomsticks. Wait, I’m confused now.

4. you forgot pig liver. And I would at least try kimchi, especially if you like it and say it has good spices on it. Oh, and hard cookies, if you make them.

5. another truly inspired connection with the ironic hate of feet love of shoes. Or IS is ironic?

6. true.

7. could this be compared to winning the lottery? Not good at writing songs nor winning the lottery, but when he does either, it’s great!! Ha…

8. true.

9. true.

10. thank you Heidi.

11. i’m sorry Heidi. (with respect to lost skype time that you might have in the back
of your mind with this one)

12. denial.

13. true. But another ironic one. At least when it comes to YOUR hair and … uh, well,
you know.

14. or perhaps even die regretting it.

15. the desert must be dustier and the snow whiter.

16. you got me.

17. unless you speak of a Korean crowd. In which case I might get randomly hugged!! <3

18. denial.

19. true. Just ask jesi the cheater.

20. *forgets how to read and write and type*

21. denial. *hidden smirk*

22. and yet somehow you make me go ever so weak at the knees.

23. and never have I met a lady so OVERLY-deserving of every ounce of it. And I despair as I look at you and then see the many gallons I have spilt on the ground. And grimace as I allow God to put lotion on my rough spots. The back of my hand may be smooth but I still have large calluses on my palms.

~~heidi, so thoughtful, so flattering, so gracious of you. My heart WAS moved (emphasis because of my words about male emotion) and I thank you for your words. I pray for you and our relationship, asking God to lead our hearts correctly.

With hope that I write more soon,

Truly yours.