OK

ok, i'm ready for normalcy.
two weeks is too long,
two months is ridiculous.
right as we need to work things out
right as things are all pressing
this, then that, then this again.
and i've been rationalizing,
reschedulizing, and pushing-asiding.
i've avoided learning from it
i've avoided God's lessons relating to it
so how can i expect to move forward?

Lord would you help me see?
could You help me to be changing
is it too late to start truly seeking.

i am still tired but ready
ready to serve on my own
from scratch if need be,
please provide me with necessities.

i see so many opportunities
and i'm lost within my own naivety.
i trust that You will properly place me
my faith grows daily, please confirm it.
i want to tell my story of You.