forever love feels like

my mind is blank
this guitar noise
coarsing through my head
is not clarifying
what i should be doing
with and for you.

for it comes down to this
i don’t know what forever love feels like.
i can say i love you
but i’ve problems and sins
and honestly i don’t know
what it takes to love someone. forever.
but i know you deserve life-time love
which is why i ask that your Savior comes first.
because as much as i do love you,
i’ve never died for you, nor come back to life
and just see His true promises!!
constant support. He’ll love and He’ll cherish
‘till death...brings you even closer than life.

yet on this earth and very best i can
i desire to devote … [will finish in person some other time]

was it really six months.
what were those feelings.
how how how faithful He is.
and just so you know:

if i went blind, your laugh would be the most beautiful thing about you.
if i went deaf, your smile would be the most gorgeous
and if i went mute, i’d kill myself if i’d never told you these things face-to-face.