growing beauty complexity

(written 4-27-09)
Heidi and I are physically closer than i'd ever thought possible way back in the day. she is amazing. but Korea is looming more than ever. more than ever i just want to be with her and i know that that is precisely what i WON'T be able to do for a freakin 14 months. :( but in the long run i feel like it will be a good thing. as impossibly difficult as it will be at first and probably to the day she comes home. i wan t
(written 6-1-09)
my love sitting next to me so genuine and real
soon to be genuinely far far away.
you make my day. everyday. can you
do that from Seoul?
i want so much more -- maybe it's good you
are gone. make me appreciate what i had.
make me grateful for what i'm to be given
whether "good" or "bad" since He tells me
what those are anyway.
but as for you -- i just want to be w/ you forever please. thanks.
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you rest your forehead
on my collarbone
like listening to my throat.
i have my hand on your
side, it is warm.
the breath i slowly
inhale
is full of layers of
you.
flooding the memories
like no words can
and i know that this
too is a moment
-- in time -- in
space -- precious
and enviable; for
soon i shall not hear
your voice, the
weakening laughter
soon, the lingering
tingle of your hand
on my face will
fade
yet. an increasing
assurance of your
love, albeit no tickling
or cuddling transpires
shall convince me that
we are meant to be
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