you long for understanding

8-21-09

you long for understanding

the rain falls around her
when you are without her
it dampens your soul.

she's right, you think she's it
you know she's completely legit
her confessions of deception
only confirm the truth.

you see she is choked by lies
they make her shift and scared.
but these are not her lies.

instead you are the one
causing misunderstanding.
instead you are the one
who is misunderstood.
but you are the one
who let's her think you are good.

the blue of the rain
and the brown of the earth.
you pick up old filth
that had been washed away.

she sees you through the droplets
as someone of innocence.
she leans on you in the darkness
as someone who has sense.

and when her tender arms pull you close
and when her face is buried in your chest
it feels real. and you are.

but that understanding that comes
is merely a taste of who you should be.
what she sees in you is a shadow,
a shadow of what He made you.

for she misunderstands what erodes you
the hook in your nose that controls you.
that which drowns your soul and frowns your smile.

you long for understanding
so you'll know her shifting
you long for understanding
so she'll find what she's missing.

you. you're missing.
so find yourself in the Lord.
go find the integral you.
you said it, so allow it, since
you long for understanding.