it is more mine than it is san andreas'

LightZone:
it is just coming to You.
it is praying before
...and after
it is relying on You first.
...and on You last.
so the outcome is:
i am closer to You
even if my prayers were not answered,
Your purposes were fulfilled.

Personal:
and after talking to her
i do not know how to work it out
it is almost as if
i give up fixing the little things
because You still have the biggies.
i struggle to make the effort
when all i can see is her buying a ticket.
when all i can hear is her repeating new vocab.
when all i can touch is her half-torn out heart.
when all i can taste is her love of tai food.
when all i can smell is her fading perfume.
when all i can think is her.
when all i can think is her.

HLouise:
so maybe it is the same.
is it just coming to You
is it praying before
...and after
is it relying on You first
...and on You last
will the outcome be:
i am closer to You??
but You seem so far away.
please answer my prayers,
but fulfill first Your purposes.