to hold your hand

makes sense if i’m the one
but if things fall through
and if you go on to another
i don’t want my hand to be your baggage
leaving him with only most of you.

frustrating how i want to leave a lasting impression on you,
but only if you’re to be mine forever.
otherwise you must forget me.

the only way love will last is to give everything away
but the timing is impossibly crucial
inestimably elusive.
leaving me with a girl on my mind
but a weight on my heart.
so unsure
-for to love her may not be loving
-but leaving doesn’t seem that loving
-rather love is to lay down my life
-leading me to believe i must be in her life
-for how can i lay it down if i’m not

so as i struggle with extending my love to the right extent
i’d like you to know i love you extensively, intensively

because i do have reservations
about somany things
but not about you.

it’s you i love but how far can i go
it’s you i love but how much do i show
it’s you i love but what path do i live
it’s you i love but what life can i give
it’s you i love but should i know
it’s you i love but should it grow

pretty much just like to fast-forward―see how things turn out
then come back to enjoy the whole process or preempt the pain

love―the greater potential for joy brings more possibility for pain
but if love didn’t contain pain, how would we recognize it??
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